break my heart,

 

feed me lies,
how about that?

 

promise me things you'll never do,
it's what you do best.

 

god it's just so sad, so sad.

i hate to see myself like this
so contained in the situation,

what can i do?

 

this is how i fall.

 

i hate to admit that all that time i spent
contemplating
thinking

anticipating -

was pointless.

 

but it was, wasn't it?
i've wasted more of my time than i have of yours.

 

this is crap. this is stupid. this is fate.
this is out of our control - this is meant to be.

 

but no - don't feel like i need the sympathy. i really don't.

i need the truth and if that means breaking my heart - then do it.

do it for me.

 
break my heart.

 

goodness. it's been a bloody rough year x_x
a big hearty thanks to the-people-that-should-know-who-they-are

for pulling me through it.

best wishes?
nah,
let's make 2007 an awesome year :D