i still remember 9th grade, when i first ran the sun run for PE.
then 10th grade, where PE was still obligatory, hence so was the sun run.
then 11th grade, when i opted for Leadership/PE, so i'd ran the sun run again -

except it started to slowly grow on me.

every year, i looked forward to it a bit more.
so this year, there is no PE, no Leadership/PE, but i signed up anyway.

in fact, i ended up signing up alone, without someone to run with! hahaha

grade 9, with sammi
grade 10, with anita
grade 11, with guang ...

and this year, i ran it alone.

it wasn't bad,
sometimes i think doing things alone is good -
like, once in a while.

isn't it kindof funny how we represent the sun as a man?
the sun is masculine, we give the sun the pronoun "he", "him"

which gives way to how we represent the moon as a woman.
the moon is feminine, "she" is the moon.

and look at it this way:
the sun is always around during the day.

his presence always makes us happy.
except he is disloyal,
and sometimes he never shows up.

but we forget his absences when he does come,
it doesn't matter when, we're always happy to see him.

now look at the moon:
she's only ever completely visible at night.

the darkness is her terrain.

we sometimes call her names like, eerie.
at her fullest, she releases vampires, wolves - monsters.

and what destroys these monsters?

the sun.

except without the moon,
we would never know the monsters within us.

without the moon,
our monsters would never be brought out before the sun.

she allows us to see ourselves at our worst,
but the sun finishes us off and we see him
as the hero.

we always liken the light at the end of the tunnel to sunlight,
the dawn after the endless night.

but in this endless night,
what was there to guide you?
the moon.

when the sun leaves,
she finds you, guides you,

she stays by your side.